Mistreatment and Body-Shaming in Coaching
I recently returned from the empowering Strong Runner Chicks (SRC) retreat in the wake of an NCAA coach allegedly body-shaming his athletes—something that is not the sole “cause” of eating disorders, but it sure can trigger them. I went to the SRC retreat knowing that many of us runners had very similar stories with eating […]
We Must Speak
I want to tell you that it is okay to ask for help. That even now I still struggle to do it myself. That just the other day, when I finally admitted to myself that the eating disorder was worsening again, that it was okay to say something. That I must. I want to tell you […]
Guest Post: Lize Brittin’s Anorexia Recovery as a Runner Part 2
(Read Part 1 of Lize Brittin’s journey here). After 20 years of struggling, my life started to feel different. Over time, I was able to find joy again. I could run again without having to force myself to be at the top. During this transition, I noticed a strong correlation between my thoughts and my […]
Hungry to Speak
You ask me why I eat in secret. I wish you couldn’t see me eat. I wonder how much you think about what I eat. I decide what I will eat next to make it look like I am not eating too much. I wait until it is noisy enough in the room so that […]
If Dieting is Detrimental to Athletes, Why Did I Keep Doing It?
Q: Even though running was your primary goal, when it became evident that the diet was detrimental to running it still pulled you back in. Why do you think it still gripped you even when you knew it wasn’t the direction you wanted to go? One word: Fear. When I noticed any detrimental effects on […]
Why Did I Attempt a Raw Food Diet as a Runner?
One of the biggest questions I get is about why I felt the need to follow a raw food diet as a collegiate cross country and track runner. Nutrition was important to me from a young age because I wanted to eat well to run well–and I started running consistently when I was 5 years […]
Do I Really Have An Eating Disorder?
I remember going into my sophomore year of college thinking about how I “had” to lose some weight to run faster than my freshman year. I had gotten to the point where I thought only weight loss would keep me at the top. Although I was at my thinnest, I was not just skin and […]
A Glimpse of Where I Am Now
It feels like it’s been a long grieving process; like a part of me was dying slowly before my eyes for the past few years and I had to watch it unfold. I just couldn’t let her go. No matter how mean, how frustrating, how deceiving that voice was, I could not let her go. […]
Raw Food Journal Entries 33-36: Bring on the Binges
July 16, 2011 My weight scares me. I know I shouldn’t be surprised after bingeing again last night, but this feels like something out of my control and I feel alone in it. I only have myself to blame. I competed in the Tri Del Sol triathlon today. I’m surprised I did as well as […]
Raw Food Journal Entry 2
April 12, 2011 Mood: This diet is new, so it’s exciting for me! Breakfast: 4 plums, banana, orange, Raw organic fiber bar, Larabar Today is the day I can test what the raw food will do for my stomach during the workout. We have a 12x400m workout on the track and a few weeks ago […]