Note: I am not a dietitian or medical professional. This is simply what worked well for me in recovery after working with a registered dietitian and therapist! In the summer of 2010 I thought I could exert all the willpower in the world. I could restrict, could hold back on my deepest food desires. It […]
It feels like it’s been a long grieving process; like a part of me was dying slowly before my eyes for the past few years and I had to watch it unfold. I just couldn’t let her go. No matter how mean, how frustrating, how deceiving that voice was, I could not let her go. […]
Okay, so I can’t abandon this blog. I need your help; I’m trying to take this to the next level. What are your biggest questions about eating disorders or diets in general? Do you have specific questions about what you have read so far on this website? I want to keep you all connected as […]
As of right now, I will not be posting any more journal entries. This was a difficult decision to make. There are more journal entries to reveal, but I need to take action and make something more of these than just a blog. I never planned on doing this; in fact, I anticipated sharing the […]
July 16, 2011 My weight scares me. I know I shouldn’t be surprised after bingeing again last night, but this feels like something out of my control and I feel alone in it. I only have myself to blame. I competed in the Tri Del Sol triathlon today. I’m surprised I did as well as […]
June 13, 2011 I went to Emily’s house for a “camping” trip with my cross country teammates this past weekend. I made sure to get in plenty of greens in multiple green smoothies before leaving. For supper I ate raw vegetables and some salad with salsa. Later that night I ate fruit and then indulged […]
May 29, 2011 Track nationals was quite the experience! I was able to eat fruit every morning from the cafeteria (and lots of it at that—about twelve small bananas with some apples for breakfast each morning). The competitors’ reactions to my plates of fruit were priceless. It was comforting with my teammate Rachel there though […]
May 4, 2011 I ate oranges and apples this morning (about ten fruits in all) as a good food combination. But my mouth was acidic afterwards…it felt strange and “sticky” if that’s the right word for it… I craved sweets by 2:30pm and caved into my dark chocolate, and then two sugary granola bars. But […]
April 20, 2011 These past few days I haven’t bothered to write down everything because it’s been pretty consistent, with no major new things to record. Just eatin’ my fruits and veggies! Yesterday was fantastic because Wege had a salad of avocado and spinach. I might have over-done it on the avocado (I should watch […]
April 16, 2011 I ran the 1500m and the 800m today. My races were pitiful to say the least. I felt drained. I don’t think it’s from the food–I’ve gotten very little sleep throughout the week, I stood for hours in the cold Thursday night at the high school track meet, I’ve been stressed with […]