When Loved Ones Can’t Understand Your Eating Disorder
Trigger warning: eating disorder behaviors mentioned. Post updated 3/5/21 to reduce triggers and update the writing because I am still a perfectionist. 🙂 “How can you physically keep stuffing in more and more food?” my dad asked one night. “I mean, I get to the point where enough is enough in one meal.” My […]
Hungry to Speak
You ask me why I eat in secret. I wish you couldn’t see me eat. I wonder how much you think about what I eat. I decide what I will eat next to make it look like I am not eating too much. I wait until it is noisy enough in the room so that […]
Why Did I Attempt a Raw Food Diet as a Runner?
One of the biggest questions I get is about why I felt the need to follow a raw food diet as a collegiate cross country and track runner. Nutrition was important to me from a young age because I wanted to eat well to run well–and I started running consistently when I was 5 years […]
“It is What it is” and Second Chances
I am still racing in college–in fact, after coming out about my eating disorder and starting this blog, I am only halfway through my college career. I have two more years! At this point, I see the final two years of college as a second chance–a second chance to compete for my team, to continue […]
Raw Food Journal 5: Racing Raw
April 16, 2011 I ran the 1500m and the 800m today. My races were pitiful to say the least. I felt drained. I don’t think it’s from the food–I’ve gotten very little sleep throughout the week, I stood for hours in the cold Thursday night at the high school track meet, I’ve been stressed with […]