Conversations with Coach: The Rollercoaster of Running with an Eating Disorder
It was fall 2012, and I had bonked at one of the most important races of the cross country season. Days later, Coach Woj asked me to meet him in his office. “It tore my heart to read your running log,” Woj said. “You’re a smart girl. How can Rachael, who does everything right, not […]
Why I Kept Silent About My Eating Disorder, and Why Coaches Shouldn’t
Updated March 25, 2021, to improve readability. Dear Coach, You are required to detect the early signs of concussions and when it’s important to sit an athlete out. This is all with good reason: concussions are common in many sports. Unfortunately, so are eating disorders. Yet we still don’t know how to talk about them. […]
“It is What it is” and Second Chances
I am still racing in college–in fact, after coming out about my eating disorder and starting this blog, I am only halfway through my college career. I have two more years! At this point, I see the final two years of college as a second chance–a second chance to compete for my team, to continue […]
A Glimpse of Where I Am Now
It feels like it’s been a long grieving process; like a part of me was dying slowly before my eyes for the past few years and I had to watch it unfold. I just couldn’t let her go. No matter how mean, how frustrating, how deceiving that voice was, I could not let her go. […]
On Your Mark . . .
I cannot say starting this blog is easy, but something within prompts me to share what I’ve been hiding for too long. Something tells me I need to look back at my food log from more than a year ago when I began a raw food diet. By doing this, perhaps I will discover what […]