Returning to Competition with Binge Eating
To the athletes with a restrictive eating past who are now bingeing: I know this hurts. It hurts like hell. You probably feel broken physically and mentally. You want someone to understand. You want it to stop. You just want to be back to where you were before. I know, because I’ve been there, too. […]
Eating Disorders and Running Faster: Beyond Fuel
Post updated March 14, 2021, to improve clarity and readability. “But Rachael, you need fuel to run well.” “Your body is a machine. You are the driver. The body needs fuel and maintenance.” “If you burn it, it really does not matter what you put in the furnace.” As a runner, I knew how important […]
Guilt and Ghosts: Struggling in Eating Disorder Recovery
I still have so much anxiety about what and how much I eat because my body will stop at nothing to get what it wants–even if I think it doesn’t need it, even if I think I did everything right, even if I think I know what I am supposed to do. Words from friends […]