Guilt and Ghosts: Struggling in Eating Disorder Recovery
I still have so much anxiety about what and how much I eat because my body will stop at nothing to get what it wants–even if I think it doesn’t need it, even if I think I did everything right, even if I think I know what I am supposed to do. Words from friends […]
Why Certain “Lifestyle” Diets Didn’t “Fix” My Eating Disorder
Q: Balance – If we don’t take care of ourselves, we aren’t as able to [take care of] others. It’s about finding balance so that you avoid extremes in diet and exercise. I know that people have commented that they want to know what diet you finally found that works best, and it makes me […]
“It is What it is” and Second Chances
I am still racing in college–in fact, after coming out about my eating disorder and starting this blog, I am only halfway through my college career. I have two more years! At this point, I see the final two years of college as a second chance–a second chance to compete for my team, to continue […]
A Glimpse of Where I Am Now
It feels like it’s been a long grieving process; like a part of me was dying slowly before my eyes for the past few years and I had to watch it unfold. I just couldn’t let her go. No matter how mean, how frustrating, how deceiving that voice was, I could not let her go. […]